after the typhoon ondoy, neil was able to sleep comfortably. so he had these weird dreams. one dream was that he found my papa's car in black with Jesus' cross on top of it and its wrapped with violet cloth, like that of Good Friday when Jesus dies at 3pm, all the crosses inside the churches were wrapped with violet cloth. his dream went on as he told me it was the wedding car of my cousin. he said, i told him to wear the barong tagalog we bought for the wedding and that he also he must attend. weird right?

i also had weird dreams but not as weird as neil's but will tell it sometime later since i had a bad morning today. was not really in the mood to do household chores but i have no choice also i had to re-hire sean's tutor  coz i dont have much patience in tutoring so far from wanting to be a teacher.

oh well God bless all of us!

i dreamt of papa the other day, i think ive spoken with him during my sleep and asked him if what is heaven like?

he said "its the opposite of staying here on earth", he did not say its the opposite of hell, so i assume living on earth is purgatory. but im not satisfied with his answer and asked an example but got a weird answer, he said "on earth, rain comes from above going down, in heaven, its rain going up". oh well it was a dream so i dont expect it to be very clear. he was saying something else, but hes language was different.

On the other hand, same situation of dreaming of papa was my uncle Nap. Tito Nap was somewhat my father's buddy during their younger days. He texted the same day when i dreamt of papa, he said he was in the ICU and he dreamt of papa. He said papa took him to his place, i think he described it as his "house". The house was very colorful, pastel colors and the house is situated on a nearby creek. Tito Nap noticed that there were babies singing a different language, when he asked papa what they were singing papa said "wag mo sila pakialaman magagalit syo..." not sure how the sentence ended. further more, Tito Nap told papa he was hungry and if he can eat something papa said "sa baba ka nlng kumain, la ksing food dito" with a smile. He also asked papa if he could stay in his home but papa said it was not time.

not sure if my dream and my Tito Nap's dream was a coincidence happening the same night, but who knows our dreams were linked in one true heavenly conversation with papa! =)

had another eval of joshua from his therapist at perpetual help. the first eval was "suspect autism spectrum disorder" but now he has a diagonis of "autism spectrum disorder".

findings said:

joshua was accompanied at the clinic by his parents, brother and his caregiver. He was holding a bottle of milk and was roaming around the room and checking on things. He refused to come with the therapist but once he saw the play area he stopped crying and roam around the room.

he was last initially seen by Dr. Cielo Malijan last Sept 8, 2008 as referred by the Communicare Therapy Center for Children. He was already receiving OT sessions at the said center before they were seen by the doctor. He first received his inital evaluation at the said center having a twice a week session and was only able to attend 4 sessions. He was then transferred to Tiny Tykes Play Shop on an 8 session weekend toddler program from November 2008 to February 2009 in which the kid was able to finish the program. He is currently enrolled at First Walk on a regular school as nursery. (just talked with his teacher and recommended he stop schooling and resume his therapies instead =( which is hard to accept.)

Recommendations for OT made were the following : address work behaviours (inattention, lack of eye contact, hyperactivity, non-response when called. etc) and problems in sensory integration (prefers milk and solids),fine motor, social skills training, and cognitive stimulation.

all these had to be addressed which gave me so much pain =(

Dear God

Thank you for all these trials, i humble ask for forgiveness for all the bad things ive done consciously and unconsciously.

Spear my son having ASD coz we really cant afford therapies.

We love you.

Chai and family